I often find my self lately getting lost in the music. I know that sounds so cheesy and lame. But you know when you listen to a song and it just opens up your eyes to something you have never thought about before. This is what I am referring to. Some songs just over take you and all you can do is tune out everything around you and just feel so engulfed in it all.
The words and the sweet melodies that are being played. You just feel God's presence all around you and nothing else seems to matter at that time. You are relaxed and at ease knowing that you are more than comforted by our loving King. Often times we sing along to songs and not really even pay attention to what we are singing. Don't let the words of the song be just words coming from your mouth think about what you are singing and let it come from your heart. Get lost in the music and God's presence, and feel the peace of God's love around you.
It is an amazing feeling and makes your day so much better. Having the presence of God with you where ever you go, through something so simple as really listening to a song and not just singing along.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
thoughts+friends+love=a great life recipe
Another day where my brain is filled and on overflow of thoughts that seem to be never ending. I learned another life lesson today, is what I have come to realize as the day has wrapped up and I am sure I will continue to learn more about it. I finally understand what a true friend is....
I was sent a package tonight in the mail that I forgot today was the day it was coming. And good timing too! I asked for love to be sent to me but never did I imagine love or friendship to look or feel this way. In the first moment of opening up this package and the excitement of not knowing what is inside is only the beginning. Till you finally get to the core center of it and see how much one individual can care for you, with you not even realizing you have impacted one person this much and vice versa.
So much time and thoughtfulness put into one little box. But at the same time this box was enormous to me, with how much love and care it contained. I couldn't of asked for anything better to finish off my night. Not only did it bring an abundance of tears to my eyes knowing someone in this world thinks so much of you. But it warmed the core of my heart to make me want to continue to be an even better friend! Your actions speak louder than words, in this case my box of love was one of the best actions I have seen take place in a long time.....Thank-you once again for being true!
I was sent a package tonight in the mail that I forgot today was the day it was coming. And good timing too! I asked for love to be sent to me but never did I imagine love or friendship to look or feel this way. In the first moment of opening up this package and the excitement of not knowing what is inside is only the beginning. Till you finally get to the core center of it and see how much one individual can care for you, with you not even realizing you have impacted one person this much and vice versa.
So much time and thoughtfulness put into one little box. But at the same time this box was enormous to me, with how much love and care it contained. I couldn't of asked for anything better to finish off my night. Not only did it bring an abundance of tears to my eyes knowing someone in this world thinks so much of you. But it warmed the core of my heart to make me want to continue to be an even better friend! Your actions speak louder than words, in this case my box of love was one of the best actions I have seen take place in a long time.....Thank-you once again for being true!
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Broken smiles
Today is definitely one of those days where my heart is just so heavy and I feel burdened with so many things of my own and others. Sometimes I just look at our society and what it is turning into. It is honestly ridiculous, that you can’t even put it in words.
Everyone is struggling and it is hard to come by a truly sincere joyful person. You sit and talk with you r friends and they tell you stories about their life, most days it just breaks my heart. You just wish you could fix it all for them. Even though we can help.
There is so much brokenness in our world, hurt in the eyes of strangers. Where you just want to walk up to them and give them a hug telling a person you love them. And maybe that is all they need to hear at that point in time.
To be able to make a person smile once in their day could be their saving grace for what their actions could be later that night. We see brokenness and some days deal with it ourselves. But we don’t have to live in it like most of our society chooses to.
Wouldn’t it be incredible to be able to yell a message of love from the roof tops for everyone in the whole world to hear daily! So you know and have the reassurance that everyone has now felt love, maybe even for the first time ever. We need to choose to live life and not a life of brokenness. Be an inspiration to our society not a discouragement. See people smile and laugh and not see brokenness in their in eyes. Don’t let people walk by that are living a life style like this. Shoot them a smile and see what you get back. It can’t hurt :)
Everyone is struggling and it is hard to come by a truly sincere joyful person. You sit and talk with you r friends and they tell you stories about their life, most days it just breaks my heart. You just wish you could fix it all for them. Even though we can help.
There is so much brokenness in our world, hurt in the eyes of strangers. Where you just want to walk up to them and give them a hug telling a person you love them. And maybe that is all they need to hear at that point in time.
To be able to make a person smile once in their day could be their saving grace for what their actions could be later that night. We see brokenness and some days deal with it ourselves. But we don’t have to live in it like most of our society chooses to.
Wouldn’t it be incredible to be able to yell a message of love from the roof tops for everyone in the whole world to hear daily! So you know and have the reassurance that everyone has now felt love, maybe even for the first time ever. We need to choose to live life and not a life of brokenness. Be an inspiration to our society not a discouragement. See people smile and laugh and not see brokenness in their in eyes. Don’t let people walk by that are living a life style like this. Shoot them a smile and see what you get back. It can’t hurt :)
Living
Someone once told me the best way to express you feelings is to write them out. For a long time now I have been holding these feelings all in knowing if I write them out I have to confront them head on at the same time. But there is a time you must overcome those feelings and let them go to be set aside as apart of your past.
I still feel the heart ache some days of when it first happen. That brings me to the point of tears and frowns. I think of you not as much as I used to but not a day goes past that I can say I never thought of you at all. It is hard feeling like you are the one being left behind but all it really is, is a new beginning. That is needed and necessary but some days it is hard to see that and overcome those thoughts when you look back on the good memories of what you once had.
With all the time and effort and love you put into everything. Knowing this wasn’t for you but it was just so comfortable and they made you feel safe and loved. Some days I just wish so badly you could feel and see what I do. And I would do anything for you to know what it is like to be me just for one quick moment. So you actually understood fully what it was like to try and deal with something deep going on in your life. Some days I just want to yell at you and tell you how much you hurt me and others days all I want is just to see you smile to know that you are truly doing ok.
Mixed emotions everyday, and as those become less and less, I miss them. But not really because no one should live in their past. Some times I think about if I saw you again what would I actually do, be speechless, want to hit you (I know abrupt), hug you, walk away, actually have a conversation or pretend I didn’t even see you. You know how people say “if you have nothing nice to say, then don’t say it all”. Most days this applies to you. You think you know a person, but do you really? Don’t get me wrong I am not bitter nor holding a grudge just trying to understood where your coming from fully. I still to this day do you not understand your logic in living life……Hide, runway…..Guess you wouldn’t know yourself…..
All these thoughts run through your mind and sometimes I wonder why I even think about someone who has hurt me so bad knowing the hurt comes along with the thoughts. In situations like these you come to realize how much you can care for a person or the extreme opposite. You see what is out their in the world for you and you take a hold of it or what you thought you had a hold of. Or maybe that is called being just plain naive.
I could write forever about this with all the time and energy I put into one relationship in life. But in the end let’s just chalk it up to a learning experience……I feel as I still have not got all my thoughts and feelings out about this but everyday is a new day!
I still feel the heart ache some days of when it first happen. That brings me to the point of tears and frowns. I think of you not as much as I used to but not a day goes past that I can say I never thought of you at all. It is hard feeling like you are the one being left behind but all it really is, is a new beginning. That is needed and necessary but some days it is hard to see that and overcome those thoughts when you look back on the good memories of what you once had.
With all the time and effort and love you put into everything. Knowing this wasn’t for you but it was just so comfortable and they made you feel safe and loved. Some days I just wish so badly you could feel and see what I do. And I would do anything for you to know what it is like to be me just for one quick moment. So you actually understood fully what it was like to try and deal with something deep going on in your life. Some days I just want to yell at you and tell you how much you hurt me and others days all I want is just to see you smile to know that you are truly doing ok.
Mixed emotions everyday, and as those become less and less, I miss them. But not really because no one should live in their past. Some times I think about if I saw you again what would I actually do, be speechless, want to hit you (I know abrupt), hug you, walk away, actually have a conversation or pretend I didn’t even see you. You know how people say “if you have nothing nice to say, then don’t say it all”. Most days this applies to you. You think you know a person, but do you really? Don’t get me wrong I am not bitter nor holding a grudge just trying to understood where your coming from fully. I still to this day do you not understand your logic in living life……Hide, runway…..Guess you wouldn’t know yourself…..
All these thoughts run through your mind and sometimes I wonder why I even think about someone who has hurt me so bad knowing the hurt comes along with the thoughts. In situations like these you come to realize how much you can care for a person or the extreme opposite. You see what is out their in the world for you and you take a hold of it or what you thought you had a hold of. Or maybe that is called being just plain naive.
I could write forever about this with all the time and energy I put into one relationship in life. But in the end let’s just chalk it up to a learning experience……I feel as I still have not got all my thoughts and feelings out about this but everyday is a new day!
Friday, May 30, 2008
Reality Check
Tonight I was driving on the highway to my good friends house. When traffic started to slow down and that “oh good” an accident happened went through your head. Now we are going to be bumper to bumper unwillingly. But this time around my thoughts didn’t go to that. My first thought was just to start praying for what was up ahead. Next thing I knew we were bumper to bumper and just inching along. As fire trucks and police cars went flying by. Knowing now it was an accident up ahead and still not knowing what to expect all I could do was pray, for who. I didn’t know. For what? Not really sure either.
As I got closer I saw tire shreds all over the highway and on the other side in the ditch was a car missing it’s whole side like someone had ripped the whole side paneling off. Surprisingly enough no one was hurt the one car accident with the one person involved was ok. As I kept driving further seeing the accident in my rear view mirror it hit me all of a sudden. For a lack of better words one of those “reality check” moments. Where you realized that could have been you.
And your thoughts start to race,
what was the last thing I said to someone, or the last phone call I made, or the last person I saw.
You start to realize life is to short and even if your 95 it still seems to young to die.
That we still have so much to live for, so much to see and so much to offer to others. And most of all so much love to offer to people. And makes everything else seems so insignificant, like that grudge you have been holding against someone for months or maybe even years. Or that bitterness you hold in your heart towards a “friend” or family members.
You see it from an outsiders perspective and see that life is a one time thing and you can make it as memorable as you want or not. That we choose to love on people unconditionally or not. That in those reality check moments you hold the ability to let it just be something you once thought of. Or you have the ability to let it be something that motivates you to be a better person and you learn from it.
Tonight was definitely one of those moments I will not let pass by, but hold onto it. Realizing who knows what tomorrow will hold….but in the mean time I am going to make the best of it.
As I got closer I saw tire shreds all over the highway and on the other side in the ditch was a car missing it’s whole side like someone had ripped the whole side paneling off. Surprisingly enough no one was hurt the one car accident with the one person involved was ok. As I kept driving further seeing the accident in my rear view mirror it hit me all of a sudden. For a lack of better words one of those “reality check” moments. Where you realized that could have been you.
And your thoughts start to race,
what was the last thing I said to someone, or the last phone call I made, or the last person I saw.
You start to realize life is to short and even if your 95 it still seems to young to die.
That we still have so much to live for, so much to see and so much to offer to others. And most of all so much love to offer to people. And makes everything else seems so insignificant, like that grudge you have been holding against someone for months or maybe even years. Or that bitterness you hold in your heart towards a “friend” or family members.
You see it from an outsiders perspective and see that life is a one time thing and you can make it as memorable as you want or not. That we choose to love on people unconditionally or not. That in those reality check moments you hold the ability to let it just be something you once thought of. Or you have the ability to let it be something that motivates you to be a better person and you learn from it.
Tonight was definitely one of those moments I will not let pass by, but hold onto it. Realizing who knows what tomorrow will hold….but in the mean time I am going to make the best of it.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Hurts
Hurts make us cry, hurts make us saddened, hurts make us not have faith, hurts make us not want to try again, hurts make you feel hollow.
Hurts make or break you, hurts strengthen you, hurts build you up to be better, hurts make you who you are today, hurts encourage others. hurts happen to everybody.
Everybody has hurts in their lives and some never get easier to talk about over time. And that pain that you felt on that day still strikes that same chord as it day on that day that the hurt first occured. You think your hurt gets easier to deal with over time, or to talk about.......And they do but that hurt will never fully go away. You feel it in the pit of your stomach, always in the back of your head, in the core of your heart, you see it in your eyes.
Hurt is a concept that no one will fully understand why it has to happen. But sometimes we don't need to know. Because it is ok to cry and it is ok to be sad, it will build your faith. To make you want to try again to the point where you don't feel hollow......And in time that day will come through prayer and faith and knowing it is ok to not always know why things happen the way they do.
In the end the hurt we overcome can only make us better as a whole.....hard to believe sometimes but in time you won't need to ask why anymore but just have an understanding.
Hurts make or break you, hurts strengthen you, hurts build you up to be better, hurts make you who you are today, hurts encourage others. hurts happen to everybody.
Everybody has hurts in their lives and some never get easier to talk about over time. And that pain that you felt on that day still strikes that same chord as it day on that day that the hurt first occured. You think your hurt gets easier to deal with over time, or to talk about.......And they do but that hurt will never fully go away. You feel it in the pit of your stomach, always in the back of your head, in the core of your heart, you see it in your eyes.
Hurt is a concept that no one will fully understand why it has to happen. But sometimes we don't need to know. Because it is ok to cry and it is ok to be sad, it will build your faith. To make you want to try again to the point where you don't feel hollow......And in time that day will come through prayer and faith and knowing it is ok to not always know why things happen the way they do.
In the end the hurt we overcome can only make us better as a whole.....hard to believe sometimes but in time you won't need to ask why anymore but just have an understanding.
Friendship
Sometimes I don't think we value our friendships that we have enough. And we don't realize until a person is gone or distant how much they actually meant to us as a whole. We meet people and have a bond together that continues to grow over time. We get to know them better and they get to know us inside and out.
Many times we take advantage of that and not realize that one day that friendship could no longer exist if we don't set aside time for that person. And slowly we regret that knowing we had such a good friend once that is now no more than just a stranger walking by.
All that time and energy gone because we chose not to care as much after awhile. We need to see the value in people and see that they have good intentions for us, to be their for us through thick and thin. In your most ugly moments or your time to shine! We need to understand that people do care for others even if they don't say it with their words. I know that I don't want any friends that are now strangers.
Friendship is a gift given to us some may see it like a gift and others maybe not. But you choose who you want as a good friend or not and who you might regret not being good friends with. If you have a good friend who has seen the good the bad and the ugly. And loves you regardless. Don't be a stranger.......
Many times we take advantage of that and not realize that one day that friendship could no longer exist if we don't set aside time for that person. And slowly we regret that knowing we had such a good friend once that is now no more than just a stranger walking by.
All that time and energy gone because we chose not to care as much after awhile. We need to see the value in people and see that they have good intentions for us, to be their for us through thick and thin. In your most ugly moments or your time to shine! We need to understand that people do care for others even if they don't say it with their words. I know that I don't want any friends that are now strangers.
Friendship is a gift given to us some may see it like a gift and others maybe not. But you choose who you want as a good friend or not and who you might regret not being good friends with. If you have a good friend who has seen the good the bad and the ugly. And loves you regardless. Don't be a stranger.......
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