Friday, May 30, 2008

Reality Check

Tonight I was driving on the highway to my good friends house. When traffic started to slow down and that “oh good” an accident happened went through your head. Now we are going to be bumper to bumper unwillingly. But this time around my thoughts didn’t go to that. My first thought was just to start praying for what was up ahead. Next thing I knew we were bumper to bumper and just inching along. As fire trucks and police cars went flying by. Knowing now it was an accident up ahead and still not knowing what to expect all I could do was pray, for who. I didn’t know. For what? Not really sure either.
As I got closer I saw tire shreds all over the highway and on the other side in the ditch was a car missing it’s whole side like someone had ripped the whole side paneling off. Surprisingly enough no one was hurt the one car accident with the one person involved was ok. As I kept driving further seeing the accident in my rear view mirror it hit me all of a sudden. For a lack of better words one of those “reality check” moments. Where you realized that could have been you.
And your thoughts start to race,
what was the last thing I said to someone, or the last phone call I made, or the last person I saw.
You start to realize life is to short and even if your 95 it still seems to young to die.
That we still have so much to live for, so much to see and so much to offer to others. And most of all so much love to offer to people. And makes everything else seems so insignificant, like that grudge you have been holding against someone for months or maybe even years. Or that bitterness you hold in your heart towards a “friend” or family members.
You see it from an outsiders perspective and see that life is a one time thing and you can make it as memorable as you want or not. That we choose to love on people unconditionally or not. That in those reality check moments you hold the ability to let it just be something you once thought of. Or you have the ability to let it be something that motivates you to be a better person and you learn from it.
Tonight was definitely one of those moments I will not let pass by, but hold onto it. Realizing who knows what tomorrow will hold….but in the mean time I am going to make the best of it.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Hurts

Hurts make us cry, hurts make us saddened, hurts make us not have faith, hurts make us not want to try again, hurts make you feel hollow.

Hurts make or break you, hurts strengthen you, hurts build you up to be better, hurts make you who you are today, hurts encourage others. hurts happen to everybody.

Everybody has hurts in their lives and some never get easier to talk about over time. And that pain that you felt on that day still strikes that same chord as it day on that day that the hurt first occured. You think your hurt gets easier to deal with over time, or to talk about.......And they do but that hurt will never fully go away. You feel it in the pit of your stomach, always in the back of your head, in the core of your heart, you see it in your eyes.

Hurt is a concept that no one will fully understand why it has to happen. But sometimes we don't need to know. Because it is ok to cry and it is ok to be sad, it will build your faith. To make you want to try again to the point where you don't feel hollow......And in time that day will come through prayer and faith and knowing it is ok to not always know why things happen the way they do.

In the end the hurt we overcome can only make us better as a whole.....hard to believe sometimes but in time you won't need to ask why anymore but just have an understanding.

Friendship

Sometimes I don't think we value our friendships that we have enough. And we don't realize until a person is gone or distant how much they actually meant to us as a whole. We meet people and have a bond together that continues to grow over time. We get to know them better and they get to know us inside and out.
Many times we take advantage of that and not realize that one day that friendship could no longer exist if we don't set aside time for that person. And slowly we regret that knowing we had such a good friend once that is now no more than just a stranger walking by.
All that time and energy gone because we chose not to care as much after awhile. We need to see the value in people and see that they have good intentions for us, to be their for us through thick and thin. In your most ugly moments or your time to shine! We need to understand that people do care for others even if they don't say it with their words. I know that I don't want any friends that are now strangers.
Friendship is a gift given to us some may see it like a gift and others maybe not. But you choose who you want as a good friend or not and who you might regret not being good friends with. If you have a good friend who has seen the good the bad and the ugly. And loves you regardless. Don't be a stranger.......